Public Disconnect

I tried to live my life according to people’s expectations for several years. But it never worked out because I was different. No matter how hard I tried, I always fell short of people’s expectations.

Society in general expects you to go to school when you’re young, go to university and get a degree, get a job, buy a house, buy a car, get married, have a bunch of kids, go on holiday trips you never planned for, visit friends and relatives you didn’t want to see, and buy a load of stuff that you didn’t need.

I’ve seen everybody go through the same phases in life. But the most important question to me was: Are they happy?

It seems like everybody’s living their lives more so for other people than for themselves. They want to show off and look good in front of the others. They want a social status and respect from people. They want to be in charge and be in control. But the truth is, the social system was rigged from the beginning.

You are not in charge of anything. You do not control any aspect of your life. You do not have any power. You do not command any respect. Nobody cares about you. In fact, it is highly likely that all your peers secretly hate you for your material success.

The social system has been designed to keep man enslaved to the wishes of the others. A child does what his parents want him to, a teenager does what his peers want him to, an employee does what his boss tells him to, a married man does what his wife wants him to, a father does what his children want him to, a grandfather does what his grandchildren want him to, a family man does what his relatives want him to, a civilian does what the government wants him to…

Where is the freedom to do what you want? It doesn’t exist. It’s a myth. You are bound by the expectations of others. If you choose to ignore them, you are their enemy.

I decided that, in 2019, I would do whatever I wanted to do. I would do what I felt was the right choice for me, the best decision for my future. In doing so, I managed to anger a lot of people.

After years of doing what other people wanted me to do, I’m finally doing what I want to do. And it feels good. I’m happy. I’m satisfied. The reason why I was able to do it, is because I don’t care about what other people think. I don’t care about what they say behind my back. I don’t care whether they laugh at me or mock me or make fun of me. They’re irrelevant to me. They’re strangers. Just like I have never told anyone how to live their lives, I do not want them to tell me how to live mine. I will do what I want. I may be the greatest loser in their eyes. I may be a horrible and terrible human being. It doesn’t matter.

In 2020, I’m going to get things done. I’m going to accomplish what few men have managed to do so. And I will do it in spite of all the people who hate me for it.

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