It’s been a month since my last post.
I’ve been trying to reconcile with the fact that 2021 wasn’t going to be any better than 2020.
On the contrary, it could quite possibly get worse.
I stopped following my schedule and decided to go with the flow. I wanted to see how I spent my time and where I spent it. I wanted to stop doing the things that I didn’t like, continue doing the things that I loved, and find more things that I liked.
I stopped following the news.
A lot of my time was spent following the news for the latest Covid-19 updates and tech updates and events worldwide.
But I realized that news is only relevant for a short duration – as long as it gets publicity. With the clock ticking, passing time generated more events, more updates, more news. It was becoming mentally exhausting to keep up with things that would barely affect my personal life in any way.
Look at the Covid-19 news for example. What a bummer! It’s like a drug addiction with highs and lows. When does it stop?
I’ve been meaning to explore my creativity side for a while now. I wanted to create a work of art, something unique, something special. Constant rants on the latest events in the news wasn’t cutting it.
I had hoped I would get a camera at the beginning of this year. But with my meagre budge, I could only afford the laptop, which I went for, because I needed a serious upgrade.
So vlogging has taken a back seat in the list of things I wanted to pursue, once again.
With the news gone, Lemmy and Raddle had dropped down my frequented site list.
I had planned to resume my daily journal in February. That didn’t happen. And from a privacy perspective, I think it’d happened for the best. From a creative standpoint, I’d documented an entire year of my life. I don’t think another year was going to make it any better, particularly this one.
I had a run-in with some pricks on the internet. What can I say? Speaking facts comes at the price of not being popular.
I also had an encounter with a group of assholes who just didn’t like me. It wasn’t because of the facts for sure, because I hardly ever interacted with them. I think it’s because they were secretly jealous of me. Why? Because I was better than them, that’s why. Or perhaps they were racist. They definitely wouldn’t admit to that one because then they’d be the bad guys. One guy didn’t like me for my religion – clearly this dunderhead had a single interaction with me, formed his shitty opinion, and stopped following me. Now if he’d stop flapping his gums spitting lies about me, that’d be great! These hypocrites love to lie and kiss ass to appear favorable in popular opinion. And so they banded together to shun me, silence me, perhaps make me disappear? Only from their little bubbles folks. The moment they stepped out of their bubbles, reality in the form of my presence would smack them across their faces.
It’s occurred to me that I should stop socializing on the internet, just like in real life. Because most people are like assholes, they’re best kept hidden from my view.
My DJ schedule has been cut down to one session daily. That’s on me, because I missed a bunch of sessions on the schedule. It’s a pleasant change though, because it gave me a chance to explore, discover, and try new things.
And I think, streaming 3 hours of music everyday on a niche station is overkill anyway. I had very few listeners to begin with. So if I was going to do it, it was solely out of passion, and not for popularity.
I do love music, and a daily stream sounds right up my alley.
I’ve decided to cut down on news articles, because I needed some time to focus on myself. I have an opinion on a lot of events, and writing an article on each one would take up a lot of my time.
I will, however, continue writing articles, even about news from the past few months, if I consider them worthwhile. Just because an event occurred in the past doesn’t completely erase it’s significance. On the contrary, humans can learn a lot from the past, especially when history repeats itself.
I’m planning to spend more time writing in creative projects. I recently discovered midnight.pub which has expanded to Nightfall City, complete with the web, gopher and gemini. And there’s Geocities and Cosmic Voyage.